I'm Back

"I'm back in the saddle again..."

-Aerosmith

It's nice to be back blogging once again. I think I may have taken a little too long to get back into this Well here's a poem to dust off my technique. I haven't written in a while.

New Beginnings

I stopped to look,

I was here once before,

But now this is different,

I have so much more to learn,

No more 45 minute periods,

Or teachers waving chalk,

It's hellow powerpoints,

Listening to professors lecture and talk,

Each time is so much longer,

The clock calmly ticks,

Tick... Tock... Tick...

As I can do nothing but sit,

I see some famililar faces,

Sitting down next to me,

One strong thought to the next,

Letting my mind set free,

Taking one great moment,

To the next,

Grasping each chance I get,

Picking up what's left,

My first semester is half-way done,

With work, a heavy burden,

And all of the written papers done,

With every fall of the sun....

Thursday, October 9th

Summer Vacation?

I thought summer vacation was supposed to be nothing except relaxing especially after school is out and after a hectic year. Well... I guess that I was completely wrong.

On Monday I had a Physics final which I probably didn't have to take in the first place (Don't ask!). Tuesday was kind of okay, but the major problem was that my room was a mess. Why wouldn't it be after a whole year of school and the fact that I didn't really clean it even once during that time period? Well, on Wednesday I finished it up and ended up going through a lot of college stuff that I got in the past couple of months.

I have the search down to states (I know bad idea). They're New Jersey, Pennsylvania, North Carolina, and Virginia. Well I realized sorting all of this out made me go nuts. I just sent out about 30 résumés two days ago and eventually I have to narrow down that search. Can anyone give any advice for this one?

Also, I decided that I want to start a part time job. That should work since I'm a high school junior right? Well here's another problem... I don't have my license yet. I'll get it in July so I thought I would get a job when I get it (which will be the end of July), but I'm going on this family vacation thing that we go to every year during the month of August. So the problem is how can I get a job anywhere when I already have to take time off when I start working? Confusing huh?

To anyone who has read this post I give you a lot for it, because I know I'm a little crazy at times. Today should hopefully turn out better since it's a Friday. If you could give me any advice at all on the couple of problems I have listed through out the post I would really appreciate it. Once again thanks for listening and I hope you have a great Summer Vacation.

Overthrown

I wrote this one on APRIL 20, 2007 which was two Fridays before Spring break started. Has anyone felt as if you were just so tired that you shouldn't even be awake let alone in school? Well... try to relate to this one...

Overthrown

Staring at the board infront of me,

Trying to understand what I see,

Eyes begin blur,

As the speaking around me stirs,

The weight hits my eyes,

As I wish it was a different time,

Longing to be alone,

Unable to hear the noisey tones,

Of peoples' voices,

Not able to make my wanted choices,

Of relaxing,

Along with the contradiction of floating to the ceiling,

Slowly, my eyes being to drop,

Try to make it stop,

With one strong thought,

But its a hopeless shot,

No power against my body, with thoughts from the brain,

Enough to drive a person insane,

The true feeling of being tired,

Fighting against my want, my desire,

To stay strong, and not let thoughts of dreams take hold,

But, it seems my body is sold,

to its exhaustion and soreness,

It longs to rest,

which makes it resist,

the power of my brain,

which feels as if it's cut deep,

because that part of me too,

just longs sleep.

A Little Scent?

Scent

As I stare down at the plate,

I know I just can't wait,

Staring at the food in front of me,

Taking in all of the food that I see,

Letting the sweet smells hit my nose,

Later on it lingers on my clothes,

Grilled vegetables mixed with meat,

With the sweet smell of fresh baked bread made with wheat,

Just one hour can come and go,

A dinner that seems all for show,

To amaze the senses,

And makes an appetite relentless.

Time to go back?

I have noticed that I have not posted up any poetry that I have written in a pretty long time. It's not that I haven't written anything, it's just that posting has gotten a little hard, especially since school has picked up its pace quite a bit. So... here's some of the poetry that I have written and some explanations to go along with them.

APRIL 10, 2007

Smile a little more,
Let it light you up
To your core,
Take every step with pride,
Be proud of you are,
Take it in strides,
Be who you are without the stress,
Be confident in yourself,
Pass life's test.
Don't care about just you,
People have to be around,
They need you too.
It doesn't mean be a follower,
Or let people influence who you are,
Let your style show,
without the dollar.
Show a little sympathy,
Let the world know who you are and what you do,
It's okay to let everyone see,
What makes you, you,
And what you are today,
It's okay to bring up your past to meet the future,
But don't wait until it's too late,
To live your life the way life should be lived.

~The point of the poem is to be who you are and let the world know too~

APRIL 16, 2007

Walking in a different light,
Walking past the line of sight,
Wishing one time to be invisible,
Wishing that you could be liberal,
Wanting to be away from the crowd,
Wanting to stay away from any sound,
Hiding from the lies,
Hiding from the questions that lead up to why?
No emotion,
No body motion,
Leaving life behind,
Leaving the person that was kind,
End of selflessness,
End of the chances to wish,
Time goes by sometimes so fast,
Time never does last,
Now, you shadow is cast,
Now, there's no chance to bring up your past.

~Live a little in the past to save your future~

APRIL 17, 2007

Afaid of the next,
The future,
The things that bother you less.
Afraid to get emotional,
Let tears flow,
Baring of your soul,
No chance to smile,
Not one tear,
Holding everything back for a while,
Letting your fuse grow long,
Until everything makes you blow,
And you are viewed as wrong,
As your face turns bright red,
And eyes, sharp as pins,
Angry with what is said,
Chest gets tight,
As it's so hard to breathe,
And head feels light,
Skin seems to burn,
You don't understand what you do,
You look upon yourself with scorn,
The next day brings a new light,
Letting yourself learn and grow,
While moving towards what is truly right!

~It's okay to have a temper... but learn from it, and understand what makes what you do wrong when you let everything go, and teach yourself how to make it right.~

All of these poems I actually had on my profile before I put them up here. If you want to see it just click Here.

Persuasive Speech Information

• Humphry, Derek. "Activists Must Fight for the Right to Assisted Suicide." Greenhaven Press 03 Apr. 2007. Opposing Viewpoints. 3 Apr. 2007.
  
  
  this site explains a point of view how Euthanasia is being undermined by the society in which we live in.

found at http://galenet.galegroup.com/servlet/OVRC?vrsn=230&dcoll=ovrc-vpnts&locID=southindians&frmml=1&c=1&ste=30&docNum=X3010020227

http://galenet.galegroup.com/servlet/OVRC?vrsn=230&dcoll=ovrc-vpnts&locID=southindians&frmml=1&c=3&ste=30&docNum=X3010134225

• this site explains how physicians should have the right to agree with mercy killing and they should know what is best for their patients, even if that does mean assisting their death.

http://galenet.galegroup.com/servlet/OVRC?vrsn=230&slb=SU&locID=southindians&srchtp=basic&c=9&ste=17&tbst=ts_basic&tab=1&txb=%2522Euthanasia%2522&docNum=X3010035243&fail=16&bConts=127

• this site explains how others oppose my point of view and what I can say against their arguments. (especially about religion)

http://galenet.galegroup.com/servlet/OVRC?vrsn=230&slb=SU&locID=southindians&srchtp=basic&c=7&ste=20&tbst=ts_basic&tab=8&txb=%2522Euthanasia%2522&docNum=A156101834&fail=16&bConts=127

• this site explains how an Italian man is always being denied for Euthanasia and how painful it is for him to undergo.

Knickerbocker, Brad. "Oregon Takes Stock of 'Right to Die' Law." Christian Science Monitor 12 Mar. 2007. SIRS Researcher. 8 Apr. 2007.

• this site explains how oregon's law has taken affect and has undermined the opposition's arguments as well.

from http://sks.sirs.com/cgi-bin/hst-article-display?id=SNJ1316H-0-6893&artno=0000258426&type=ART&key

http://sks.sirs.com/cgi-bin/hst-article-display?id=SNJ1316H-0-6893&artno=0000244839&type=ART&key=

• this site explains how doctors have helped people commit suicide for years without anyone actually knowing otherwise, and the numbers have not rised at all since the legalization.

http://sks.sirs.com/cgi-bin/hst-article-display?id=SNJ1316H-0-6893&artno=0000250073&type=ART&key=

• this site explains how two nurses and a doctor were arrested for assisted suicide and how there's now a debate whether or not it should be considered legal.

Allergies...........

Allergies....(sigh).... I hate them. I'm not talking about any other kind of allergy either. I have these great allergies that just happen to make me break out in a rash and make me spike a fever. Sounds great doesn't it?

Well, it all begins on I think it was Sunday night. I started to break out then and I was miserable all week so far. This is the first day I'm back this week and I already want to be at home sleeping. I feel a little overwhelmed, but that's okay. On Monday, my brother walks upstairs and my mom and I already had a feeling I was staying home the next day. He looked in the pantry at all of the cereal my mom just got. I don't now how it happened but right in the front of the box in bold letters it says,"Crunchy gold flakes with WHOLE ROLLED OATS WITH GRANOLA CLUSTERS!" Only if you could have seen the look on my face. I have a few allergies to consider when I'm eating, and I'll list them out and remember this only the food allergies.

(they're listed from most severe down)

1. Oats, whole rolled oats or the flour made with it (so oatmeal is out)
2. I would have to say it would be malted barley flour (in bread so yeah I can't eat bread everyday)
3. This one would be maltodextrin (if you don't know what this is, it keeps stuff from bunching together, so coated potato chips and cookies are out)
4. This is the newest one; red dye 40 (shampoo, fruit drinks and different sodas)

Now, since I am going to be 17 and I'm used to having all of these allergies, I had to bend my diet and what I eat. If you think vitamins may work, nope. I've tried; vitamins have maltodextrin in them. I don't know why I have the allergies either, they're just I guess a part of me. My skin is also very sensitive, so I can't wear fake jewelry. One allergy I forgot to mention was my allergy to white chocolate. Don't even ask how I'm allergic to that.... Because I have no idea.

What Friendship Really Means

I wrote this poem a pretty long time ago... I wrote in on December 10, 2006. I decided to write it because I realized friendship should mean a lot to people, and many of us take it for granted, not thinking about the "real world". I've had stuff like that happen a lot to me. Some of those who you think are you friends turn into backstabbers, and some turn into people that you though they never were, and sometimes, by luck, you can find that true friend that you seem to connect with... And most of the time, can speak to, no matter how bad things seem to get, and after your done spending time with them, even if you don't talk, you feel better somehow. This poem describes exactly what friendship should be like... Well, the positive side to it anyway.

The Meaning of Friendship

The meaning of each and everyday,
One person to help push you,
Through, even when you have nothing to say,
A person to encourage you when you feel down,
Something to make you feel strong,
Just helps you, by the sound,
Of their voice, and their support,
Whether you are right or wrong,
Giving you a sweet smile,
Or giving you an angered stare,
Making a few moments last a long while,
Or just letting you know they're there,
Wiping up your tears,
Giving you some sort of reason,
Taking away your fears,
Being there for each and every season,
Getting a chance to live,
A life with someone who understands you,
With the love, only you can give,
And you receive the same back,
Because they love you too!!!

I know this sounds like a poem that can be used as an example of relationships between girls that are friends, but I have seen exceptions with guys as well and of course coed relationships. I believe that friends can help you a lot, no matter how far away they are from you, or how close. They are there for you, through and through, and that's is what truly matters.

My Imagery Poem

This is the assignment that we were given on Thursday. Even though it's due Tuesday, I am definitely not a procrastinator. So, here it is....

7th Period

Sitting in this same old room,
With the same old sound,
Nothing but silence,
Besides kids talking around,
Can taste nothing but air,
And the odor of the markers,
Along with that stale smell,
While hearing the midday walkers,
Feel the hot air of the room,
Along with the open, cool, air that blows,
From the newly opened window,
Staring at the notes ahead of me, that are shown,
Why do the desks have to be so close?
Watch the papers start to move,
Waiting for the time to change,
This period can't end too soon,
Then you get a whiff of clean air,
Right before the class is at end,
Hear the chatting of those in the room,
Can't wait to leave sometimes,
Just tell me when.

In a little while I should have a few more posts up of poems, because I haven't kept on top of them for a while.

Yesterday's Poem "Fate"

Yesterday I began to write this poem was somehow able to finish it in the ten minutes for journal time. But let me write exactly what I put in my journal yesterday...

This morning I was sitting on the bus and I heard a song that made me think (sorry I'm not going to say the title). How many times have so many people wanted to go back in time and change something that they have done? I have hit that road a few times. I love when people ask, "What would have happened if...?"

It's wishful thinking. I don't mean to sound negative, but it's your fate and you chose it by your own actions. No one did it for you.

Fate

Why do people choose their own fate?

They don't realize actions speak louder than words

Until it is too late,

At that last moment there is everything to save

With no time at all,

The walls begin to cave,

If you had only chosen more or less,

And been cautious with your mistakes,

Time could have done the rest,

Why did you not look for the sky?

Taking some thought,

Given yourself more time?

Why is it you had to tell those lies?

Wake up too late,

And force yourself to fly?

Why did you not smile a little more?

Not being friendly?

Why did you always have to settle a score?

You have to remember that you choose your own fate,

It's up to you to pick everything up,

Just don't let yourself be too late!

It has been a while since I actually wrote a poem like this. It seems a little negative but I have just realized everything you do has their own consequences that you have to deal with sooner or later. Remember you may be able to get rid of a burden right now, at this moment, but later on it's going to snowball. It's easier to deal with the consequences as they come.... and of course the earlier you do so....